What would happen?

It's Lent, and it's Friday, so you know what that means.... no meat. Jamey and I have decided to get a pizza tonight. I love pizza. I'm a total guy (even though I'm not). Pizza, hot wings, beer.... I'm a happy girl.

 But I digress.....

So we're getting pizza, which is obviously not the healthiest thing. So this completely alien thought sprang to mind, ".... what would happen if I asked for light cheese?"

What would happen???

Would they think it's a crank call and hang up?

Would the Earth shift off it's axis? The poles reverse?

Would it cause a rift in the time-space continuum, unleashing hordes of alien zombies onto the planet?

It's a gamble, I'm not going to lie..... so if you see any alien zombies.............well, I'm sorry.

In other news.

This week has had it's share of ups and downs, that's for sure. Wed and Thurs I was in an amazingly crappy mood, ready to bite someones head of at the slightest provocation. That irritability of course ratcheted up my urge to stuff my face something fierce... but I'm happy to announce that not only did I make good food choices and refrain from my post work snack fests, I also made it through Happy Hour yesterday! I did have couple drinks (which I had planned for) but in order to stay on plan, it needed to be one or the other. Given my state of mind, alcohol prevailed and I decided to forgo the hot wings, tortilla chips and spinach artichoke dip.

That's a pretty big victory for me. I love hot wings (see above). They smelled soooooo good. People were all around me smacking and licking the sauce off their fingers...... it was hard, and I'm not saying I'll beat the urge every time, but I did this time. And that's what matters.

My other big win this week? Down  2 lbs! 


I think next week is Shark Week (that 'time of the month' for those not familiar w/ the term) so who knows what's going to happen. Hopefully no one gets hurt, that's all I'm saying....

Day by day, meal by meal. Have a great weekend everyone!

UGH

Today I could feasibly beat someone to death with a tape dispenser. Know what I'm saying? It's Monday, it's that time of the month, the computers at work are acting up, my boss is asking me to do stupid crap... people's very breath is annoying me. There's really no shortage to the list. I don't know what has set me off..... but man, watch out!

Aside from being generally annoyed, I'm a little disappointed in myself, too. This weekend was pretty bad. I didn't feel good, and basically let that give me permission to eat whatever I wanted.

I've been pretty lax in taking pictures of what I've eaten, too. Here's a recap of the past couple days....
Wednesday:

 

Not so bad...

Not so bad. Notice 1/2 the baked potato...eh? eh??? 

Choc Milk for dessert... I was still hungry.

Thursday:

there's that other 1/2 baked potato and leftover pork chop (baked, not fried!)

bagel thin w/ RF cream cheese when I got home...

uh oh.... carry out! Spicy Thai Basil Chicken. Didn't eat it all though!

Friday (here's where we start going downhill....)

 

a bowl of chili and 3 hot wings.


and cake......

but it's made better by lowfat yogurt later, right?

Dinner Friday? Leftover chili......

Feeling like crap Friday night... lowfat hot choc, Ibuprofen PM, and a heating pad makes it all better....



Saturday:

mid-day snack, and doing ok so far...

uh oh. How did we end up at a Mexican restaurant??? Those chips! That cheese!

Did I mention the cheese??? 

Due to some issues, we ended up getting a free order of Queso. Which is EXACTLY what I needed. *sigh*

 

 *Not actually my fajitas. My fajitas had chorizo and cheese on them.

I'd talk about being proud I didn't eat all of it, but truth be told I couldn't because I had just stuffed my face w/ cheese dip. :/

Super Bowl Sunday:

 oh goody, leftover chili again....

and since it's the Super Bowl - you have to eat the appropriate food, right?

Domino's deep dish pepperoni and mushroom pizza.... (4 slices, I believe)

 and a Chocolate Lava Crunch Cake.

So, I put my sins before you.... admonish at will..........

I know ya'll are too nice. You'll tell me to get back on the wagon. And I have. I've done well today, I took a quick 10 minute walk earlier to get my head back on straight, and I plan on trying to get a little bit of the "E" word in tonight between laundry and house cleaning.

I was feeling crampy and yucky and generally sorry for myself, and I comforted myself as I knew how. I can't say it won't happen again, but I'll try to deal with it better next time.

So here's what I've had today:

Cinnamon Raisin Bagel Thin w/ Promise Spread



A bowl of Fiber One Raisin Bran Crunch + 1% milk for lunch. I'm sure it was more like 2 or 3 servings instead of 1... but it's lunch and hopefully it will keep me full for awhile.

oh yeah, and an orange. BTW. I'm getting sick of peeling oranges. I want someone to peel my oranges for me.



*Update*

I told my husband to get rid of the leftover pizza. Of course, there it sat in the fridge when I got home - waiting for me like a venomous spider.

Is it some kind of internal self -loathing that had a piece in my hand before I even knew it? It wasn't even all that good! But I kept eating it - even while I was thinking What the F@#*! am I doing?!

I threw the rest out, and in the grand scheme of things 1 piece isn't that bad.... but I'm disappointed in myself.

Evil, thy name is cheese. .......or pepperoni. Definitley one of the two.

Anyway, had a decent dinner:

Cheeseburgers and fries - with 96% lean beef, RF cheese, and oven fries. 

and a pudding cup



Sunday Eats

more crap food photography! You're welcome! ;)

Oh coffee, how I love thee.



So much so I want to be able to forswear my devotion in every language.....

Breakfast: 2 pseudo eggs (eggbeaters) w/ 1 slice 2% american cheese and diced ham
1 cup grits, 1Tbsp lite buttah, and 1/2 sandwich thin toasted w/ 1tsp butter

And then I cleaned house

and then we ended up at my husband's Aunt's house, where we had Chef Boyardee "homemade" pizza - which was ok, but if I was going to eat pizza for dinner, I would have much preferred really good pizza. Ya know?

Anyway, I had 3 slices (they were pretty small)

then I came home, and was unsatisfied, and had a Jello Pudding cup. 

Which unfortunately was not the magic pudding I was hoping for, so I ended up making a big glass of chocolate milk later on.

1Tbsp cocoa powder, 2 1/2 Tbsp sugar, and a big ol' glass of 1% milk. It was really rich, really filling,

.......and really hit the spot.

And even though it's a larger serving than I should have had, I feel like I did pretty well today, so I'm totally ok with it.

 

Keeping my hands to myself

It's 8:07 and I've done reasonably well w/ the no snacking... I came home and made a cup of the 25 cal diet hot chocolate w/ some marshmallows. I added some lite coffee creamer to the mix to help make it a little richer. I think if it hadn't been for the marshmallows, it still would've been really watery and bleh. I think I might try one of the 60 cal packs next time. BUT - it was hot and pretty satisfying!

I did munch on some pretzels later on, but that's it! My husband should be home in a bit, and he's picking up dinner on the way. I'm having a grilled chicken sandwich and steamed veggies. I'm pretty proud of myself for not f_ing this up today!

Now lets chat about tomorrow, shall we?

We have a slight............... problem, A slight problem that is covered in cheese and pepperoni.

*le sigh*
they're bringing in pizza for everyone at work tomorrow. In a way, I'm like "Yeah! Rock On! I love Pizza!", but in another way I'm like "Shit. This sucks. I love pizza".  

So here's my master plan.

I'm going to eat a big breakfast tomorrow, then a snack around 1130. I'm going to bring a salad to eat with the pizza. And I'm planning on having 2 slices of cheese pizza (maybe some veg if possible)

If this goes sideways, and I end up cramming 3 big slices of greasy cheesy goodness in my mouth, then my plan is to do something really light for dinner. Maybe just a salad or something.

Grocery shopping tomorrow night, a busy weekend ahead, and before you know it week 1 of my diet will be behind me. Hopefully next Monday there will be a little LESS behind! (HA HA HA HA HA)