Just a quickie update.... Down this week to 256.4! Thats down over 6 lbs from last week! I know a lot of it is water weight from the departure of my monthly friend, my stress level coming down significantly, and being to busy to have a lot of time to be bored. (because we all know bored = food)

I'm now getting into the range where I started faltering (and eventually regained) before. I dont remember my 'offical' lowest weight, but I know it was the low 250's. I know I never saw the 240's.

I am a little freaked out.... I went a couple weeks late last month off plan and ended up gaining about 2 lbs back. I was scared I had started my fall, that I would end up right back where I started in a matter of months.

Thankfully, I've been able to turn it around. I'm back on track, counting my points, planning my meals, recording what I eat. I've refused giant Reeses Cups, I've cream cake from Cold Stone Creamery, and the siren song of the Chick Fil A waffle fry.

I've been trying to stop eating before I'm full, which is counter intuitive for me. I'm trying to make my stomach understand that patience is a virtue. I've noticed that it's true, I do in fact find myself not hungry if I wait a few minutes... And by few, I mean 10 or 15. Not 3.

Thats kind of a mental breakthrough for me... I would eat quickly, then lay my fork down for about 1.5 minutes, attempt to assess my hunger, still feel hungry, and resume shoveling it in.

That obviously doesn't work. The realization that it actually takes some real time to develop the full feeling was an eye opener, for sure.

so thats where I am right now. A good spot, looking forward to putting this 'decade' behind me and getting into new uncharted territory.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Well, that didn't work out quite right!

Blogging from bed!

Food wise, this weekend couldnt have gone more awry if I'd planed it that way!

Unexpected company Fri night led to chips, buffalo wing dip, beer, and brownies.

Sat we finished off the brownies, got into an argument with the hubby, ate chicken fingers and fries from Zaxbys, and rounded the night out with Taco Hell.... I mean Bell.

Today I are raisin bran with bananas and blueberries, and made Cheeseburger Hamburger Helper as a peace offering for my husband. We split a pint of Ben and Jerrys coffee/heath bar something. (hey, usually we have our separate pints, so thats a step in the right direction, right?)

So yeah, kinda a crappy weekend. And we're only 29 minutes away from the start of a crappy work week. I can't wait till we're back on a somewhat normal schedule and not dealing with this car/money crap all the time!

enough complaining.... Tomorrow is a new day! If I can't control anything else,i can control what I put in my mouth!...... Just not what comes out of it! LOL!

Take care everyone!

Yikes!

Can you believe it? Another post from me!

Weighed in today... up 2 lbs. Yeah, totally expected. Still sucks though! But, I've forgiven myself and moved on.

Why am I suprisingly ok with being up 2lbs? It's all good because I have gotten back in the game.

I have resumed tracking and making better choices. Lots of temptation today... bagels from Panera, leftover pizza, ice cream. I chose a Panera bagel for breakfast (french toast bagel is yummy!), for lunch I opted for a healthy and low carb vegtable soup and grapes from home, and have a healthy and hearty dinner planned for tonight (turkey breast, mashed potatoes, corn, and sliced tomatoes and cukes). I'm on plan and within my points. 

This weekend is going to be busy. We're going to the Bon Odori Festival tomorrow (Japanese summer festival), then checking out some gently used new-to-us vehicles and visiting with friends.


On a side note...
I'm so happy it's Friday and in two days the wretched month of July will be safely in the history books!

Hope ya'll have a lovely weekend... talk to you soon!

Testing

Downloaded the blogger app, trying to see if it works. So if you're sering this, apparently so!

now, can I add a pic?

If Chewy the wonder cat appears looking out the window, then I guess so.

Nifty!

Hey There!

Yeah, I know.... it's been awhile!

Ok. A looooooooong while.

But I wanted you to know I'm still here... maybe not here here... but here. I'm still reading your blogs and everything but (obviously) haven't been posting anything.

I am however, continuing to lose weight. Which is the important thing. As I mentioned a few months ago, I came to the realization that I wasn't doing very well on my own. So I joined Weight Watchers and am having pretty good results.

To date, I'm down to 261.2 lbs! 

The month of July has been pretty rough, I'm not gonna lie. The transmission in my Mustang went out (long story, but it's essentially due to a smooth move on my husband's part) which is costing us $4000. Yes. 4K. FOUR THOUSAND DOLLARS.

It happened 4th of July weekend, and it STILL makes me wanna hurl just talking about it.

Thankfully, we've managed to work things out, borrow from Peter, to pay Paul, then borrow from Jeff, Frank and Steve to pay the Ford Dealership. With any luck, we'll be back in the Stang-a-lang by the beginning of next week.

All the money woes + splitting a car w/ the hubby (who works a different shift) have made for a very panicky, cranky, and at times depressed girl.

I can't lie.....food has been an issue this month. It's my go-to BFF when I need comfort. I've strayed (more than) a couple times (*cough cough* last night *cough cough*). I've also been doing a pretty crappy job of tracking my meals the past two weeks.

My weigh in is Friday. I'm expecting to be up... but I'm ok. This is life. I'm going to have good days and bad days and good weeks and bad weeks. Just because I get down and make some bad choices, it doesn't make me a failure. Before, when something would happen and my routine got shaken up - I couldn't pull myself back together. I'm getting better at forgiving myself.

I've realized that it can't be fluffy bunnies and rainbows all the time. Life happens. Shit happens. Sometimes your routine and everything else just falls apart. I'm learning that you've got to deal with it and get back on track as soon as you can.

In other news...well, there isn't much other news. Work still sucks, laundry replicates like wet gremlins. I'm still blogging on weight watchers, but I'm going to try and update this more as well. I'm going to attempt to download the app for my phone, so maybe I can do more on the fly. 

I'll post more soon! (I promise!)

love ya!

Spring!

I'm sitting outside on my deck right now, listening to the birds chirp and squirrels rustle around in the trees. I'm wearing a tank top and jammie pants, and am so soooo happy it is finally Friday.

While Fall is my favorite season... there is something about spring that really gladens the heart. The Bradford Pears and Cherry trees are all in bloom, the bare hint of green as you look out at the tree tops, the baskets of hanging flowers at the grocery store. After a long and weary winter, I just want to sit outside and immerse myself in the spring sunshine.



This doesn't really have anything to do with the diet.... other than a sense of peace and well being that I was severely lacking earlier this week. I feel good that I didn't binge and I didn't go off plan. Despite the increased sodium intake and the formidable Shark Week in occurance, I am down 1lb this morning.

I'm settling into my WW groove, getting back into drinking my water and picking veggies and fruits over crap. I'm feeling more confident in my after work snacking, and not leaving so many points for the end of the day "just in case".

I'm still not buying any kind of trigger foods. No chips or crackers, no preportioned ice cream bars or 100 call packs of cookies. As innocent as they may look, and as benign as they may be in their individual portions, I still don't trust myself to stick with just one.

I haven't been walking at night like I need to, but I have been taking a 15 minute break at work and going for a quick little walk. Its nice to be out in the sunshine, and gets me away from my desk and moving,  My goal is to keep doing that most days of the week, and to get back into walking at night.

Going to sign off for the night, starting to get a little chilly out here, and the cats are going to stage a mutiny if I tease them from out here much longer.

Happy Spring!

Pity Party

For the past couple days, I've been feeling pretty crappy. It started Sunday, and even though it was a beautiful warm sunshiney day, I was right on the edge of  'blah'. Fortunately my hubby got me out of the house and out into the warm spring air, and I was ok most of the day.

Sunday night and Monday, I moved fully into blah-dom. No energy, no interest, no nothing. Then Monday afternoon I find out that I have been mysteriously cut from this Six Sigma greenbelt class I was supposed to start. As in, it started yesterday - and no one could be bothered to tell me I would not be participating. I had no idea it was even going on until someone mentioned someone else was in the class. As of a month ago, my name was on the list.

What gives???  This was going to add some serious brownie points to my resume!

So I sent my boss an email asking what happened, and I got completely ignored.

Freaking lovely. If for some reason I couldn't do my project this go 'round, could you not have the decency to tell me?! And when I find out, can you not have the balls to explain WTF happened???

I've been with this company for 10 yrs. I've been in this department for 5. Every review, I get told I am the backbone of the team, a major asset to the company, blah blah blah. But this is what I get? I handle projects far above my pay scale, I deal with issues that should be handled by senior staff..... but I am always passed by and over looked when the kudos and the job offers come around.

I am so sick of this. I've got to find something else.


....whew. That was much more of a rant than I was planning.

So back to the point, I've moved from merely 'blah' to full on depressed. I just want to hide under the covers with my cats and not face the outside world.

I took the day off today, because I really didn't know if I could go in and not tell someone where to stick it.

So I've moped around in my pj's for the entire day. I was calling it a "mental health day", but its really a good old fashioned Pity Party.

On a slightly more positive (and diet related) note, at least I am not feeding my face, as I would typically do during a pity party.

Last night as I was peeling out of work, my first thought was "I want ice cream". Followed quickly by "I could stop by Sonic, get some ice cream and some corn dogs"

Not too long ago, I probably would've done it.

But I stopped myself. I came home, and whether it was real hunger or emotional hunger - I wanted food. So I had a toasted sandwich thin with cucumbers, tomatoes, and hummus. An hour or so later, I was still wanting more, so I ate another of those hummus sandwiches.

My husband stopped by Wendy's on the way home, and I had a Single, no cheese and no mayo. Not the best thing for me, for sure.... but I stayed within my daily points range,

I feel like my weight may be up or about the same this week. While that sucks, I think it's because Shark Week is in full effect (which is also the likely cause for my mental status) and I've also had more sodium from processed foods than normal.

I think next week will be better.

Thanks for listening to my rant. Can I have some cheese with my whine?